Almost D-day!

So... sitting at home is pretty nice. I wish it was nice out, though, so I could do some walking. It also doesn't help that I can't fit my puffy feet into my good walking shoes, so when I walk it kinda sucks and hurts my feet. Dave doesn't want to agree to the "fun" option yet. I think he's too freaked out because the due date is so near and he's afraid something bad will happen. The nurses all keep joking with me, though.

I still have a few days left until my due date but it's driving me crazy. Maybe I can call my mom and go do something...walk around some stores...the mall...I dunno. I need to keep busy so I stop thinking so much about when he's going to show up!

Dave said I don't need to take belly pictures anymore. Hahaha. I think he's right and we will just have one taken on the way to the hospital or something dorky like that.

I also bought a pink Snuggie yesterday. It's awesome.

Oh, and fyi, castor oil doesn't work...but I certainly feel less "full" now. O_O

Sheila
39 weeks 3 days

Crazy emotional changes

This past week was my last week working. It kind of came up by surprise - mostly as a result of a conversation with my husband during the week. He said it would be okay if I was done and he was proud of me for making it so long. I'm quite impressed myself. I'm also a little nervous...pesky money. The prospect of being able to relax before I push this baby out is pretty great. Just being able to sleep as much as I wanted today was great all by itself. I might even be lazier tomorrow. I do, however, need to do some grocery shopping. I might pick up a DVD, too.

Dave is gone hunting until Tuesday afternoon, which leaves me a lot of depressing alone time. It sounds weird, I know. I should be getting so much stuff done (nesting, haha) and enjoying some space. Nope. I'm not concerned about going into labor or anything...it's just that I miss him being here. I'm happy he is having fun, though. My first year as a "hunting widow" is definitely weird. Last year I was with him so it wasn't a big deal.

I have my 39 week appointment on Monday. I'm really looking forward to it! I actually feel like things are moving along and I hope to hear that from my nurse midwife as well. I'm still not having time-able contractions or anything, but I'm having a lot of pressure and cramping in my pelvis and lower back.

It sounds weird, but I feel like I need to go and sit in the nursery. There were so many days I was in there and organizing, decorating, thinking, more organizing... I feel like I've been neglecting it as of late. Or that I'm not going to be comfortable in there when the time comes. Or maybe it's just that going in that room makes it too real for me right now...and for the time being I can just keep living my life without a baby. I don't want to be like that, though. It makes me feel too selfish. Maybe it's just that I feel awkward being in there without something to do. I want to see how it functions once I actually need to change a diaper or lay him in the crib or feed him.

I'm just so crazy emotional these days, I don't really have the time to understand each separate feeling as it comes along. Being alone tends to bring more stuff up to the surface.

I think something I will do in the next few days is write a letter to Tobin. I might post it on here...but I'm not sure yet. We'll see what ends up coming out of my brain.

Sheila

38 weeks 5 days